can I do? he asked and heard in his voice the dual cry of
the two anguished beings within him.
leaned forward and looked at Madhav much as a father looks at a
troubled son, understanding both the problem that perplexes his
child and its solution. For a moment Madhav felt his pains dissolve
completely in some all healing embrace. But in the next moment,
knowing this to be an impossibility, he brought them back into sharp
is nothing I can do, he said hopelessly, answering his
you, your mother's life would be utterly worthless to her?
the sannyasin asked.
For what would she live?
Yes, of course.
It is certainly a dilemma. A mother's love is strong indeed. One
cannot easily deny it. But before you make up your mind, will you do
something for me?
absently. Of course, sir,
reached into his cloth bag and drew out a small wooden box, from
which he extracted a yellow pill.
said, swallow this and then go home at once. Within a short time
you will be seized with what will appear to be a fit. Don't be
frightened; it will be quite harmless. After the convulsions have
passed, you will appear unconscious, close to death perhaps dead.
But inwardly you will be fully conscious of all that takes place
around you. After a time, as the effect of the drug wears off, you
will regain all your faculties. There will be no harmful
aftereffects. Have no fear. Now, take it, and let us see what